Episode 6

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Published on:

15th Apr 2025

LTF | MOON DROPS | The Pink Moon's Reflection

Show Notes:

A Pink Moon Drop | Full Moon in Libra

Dedicated to my mother.

What do we see when we finally turn the mirror toward ourselves?

In this special Moon Drop, Melissa reflects on the complexity of relationship—especially the one we often forget to tend: the one with self. Under the Libra Pink Moon, this episode explores what happens when love becomes performance, when connection costs clarity, and when silence becomes a survival strategy.

Through personal stories, ancestral echoes, and full-bodied truth, Melissa shares her journey of remembering the self she abandoned to belong—and the moment she finally chose to come home.

This Moon Drop is both elegy and invocation—offered in honor of her mother, and for every daughter who’s walked the path of healing, contradiction, and reclamation.

Takeaways:

  • Melissa's reflection under the Libra Pink Moon delves into the profound intricacies of self-identity and emotional restoration.
  • She emphasizes the importance of recognizing the relationship with oneself as paramount, prior to engaging with others.
  • The episode addresses the necessity of confronting self-abandonment and the repercussions it has on personal fulfillment.
  • Melissa articulates that true love is not about performance, but about authenticity and self-reunion with one's essence.
  • The discussion showcases how the moon serves as a metaphorical mirror, revealing our hidden truths and fostering self-acceptance.
  • Ultimately, the episode is a heartfelt tribute to her mother, exploring the lessons of love and resilience she imparted.
Transcript
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What if the part of you hidden the longest Is actually the truest thing you've ever known?

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Welcome to Moondrops, a special transmission from loving the F where we follow the rhythm of the sky.

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And this time, the rhythm of goodbye.

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Tonight I dedicate this moondrop to my mother.

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Our relationship wasn't easy.

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It carried ache, silence, beauty and contradiction.

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But in her own way, she taught me to live life in every color.

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She passed away on Palm Sunday.

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A day of devotion, grace and sacred entry.

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And though she did not always know how to love me the way I needed, I see her now as a woman shaped by her own season, her own teachings.

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This is for her and for every daughter who walks the path of healing with grace.

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We're told that love is about partnership.

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We're told it's about unity, balance, connection.

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But what if before you ever loved another, you learned to abandon yourself?

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To adjust, to mold, to anticipate the needs of others before even knowing your own?

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Then love becomes not a reflection, but a refraction, a bending of your truth to fit someone else's lens.

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That isn't partnership.

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That's performance.

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And in the shrinking, I forgot the most important relationship I would ever have.

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Not my husband, not even my children, but the one with myself.

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I remember the moment after I left my marriage.

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It was like walking out of a fog.

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The air began to clear and suddenly I could see myself.

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But I didn't recognize the woman I saw.

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I looked at all I had endured, what I allowed, what I became.

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And I whispered to myself, how did this happen?

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It was like waking up from a daze.

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Like I had been gone.

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As if I had been watching myself through a bell.

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And now, finally, I could see again.

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And what I saw was a woman who had stayed.

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Through storms, through silence, through self erasure.

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I had to start again.

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Not by becoming someone new, but by remembering who I was before I ever had to edit myself.

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This Libra moon is the mirror.

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Not the rose colored one, but the honest one.

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Not the one that flatters, but the one that shows you where you've gone missing.

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It's a moon of relationship, yes, but most of all the relationship you have with yourself.

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It asks, do you abandon yourself when others pull away?

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Do you crave connection at the cost of clarity?

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Do you fall into roles that feel like love but taste like survival?

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Do you exist on breadcrumbs, believing it's a feast?

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This is not about blame.

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This is about reunion.

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What if this full moon is not about release, but about turning toward?

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What if instead of letting go, you simply turn the mirror back toward yourself and say, I see you now.

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I remember you.

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You never stop being worth choosing.

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This is not a time to earn your way back to yourself.

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This is a time to come home.

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No conditions, no ritual needed, just willingness.

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The lover's card was pulled today, inverted not as punishment, as reflection.

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A gentle quiet invitation before you seek love in another be your own reunion.

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You are not broken.

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You are not late.

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You are not too much or not enough.

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You are a mirror who has remembered her light.

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So let this moon pour her soft pink light upon your face.

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Let your feet touch the ground with certainty.

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Let your voice be the song you come home to.

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To my mother.

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Thank you for the colors, the contradictions, and the mirror you unknowingly handed me.

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The portal is open, the mirror is turned, and the truth is yours.

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Thank you for joining this moondrop from loving the app.

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If this stirred something in you, share it.

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And don't forget to subscribe because every drop brings another secret the cosmos have been keeping just for.

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About the Podcast

Loving the F
Redefining the Forbidden
Welcome to Loving the F – Redefining the Forbidden, where we strip away the illusions, speak the truth no one wants to say out loud, and embrace the messy, beautiful process of becoming.

I’m Melissa—storyteller, truth-seeker, and someone who’s lived enough life to know that transformation isn’t about following someone else’s roadmap. It’s about breaking the rules, trusting your own damn intuition, and blazing your own trail forward.

This isn’t a self-help podcast. I’m not here to tell you what to do—I’m sharing my own journey, the raw truths we all face, and the reality of what it takes to reinvent yourself from the ground up. Not the Instagram version. Not the polished, pretty, packaged-for-mass-consumption version. The real sh*t.

💡 What to Expect?
✔ Unfiltered Personal Stories – The truth behind transformation.
✔ The Highs, The Lows, and The WTF Moments – No sugarcoating. No pretending.
✔ A Deep Dive into Reinvention – What it really takes to break free from the past.
✔ Trusting Yourself Over the Noise – Because no one else has your answers.

This is about owning your story, trusting yourself, and redefining what’s possible—on your own terms. If that sounds like something you need, pull up a chair.

🎙️ New episodes weekly. Available wherever you get your podcasts.

🔗 Connect with Me:
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📩 Email: forbiddenqueen64@gmail.com

🚀 Because the F isn’t just for “forbidden” – it’s for freedom.

About your host

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Melissa Allison

Most people spend their lives playing by the rules.
Melissa Allison spent years breaking free from them.
After following the “smart” path—staying in the marriage, following the faith, listening to everyone but herself—she finally asked: What if the thing I fear most… is exactly what I’m meant to do?
That single thought changed everything.
Melissa walked away from a 16-year toxic marriage and the religion she was born into. She went back to college (for the 3rd time)—despite being dyslexic, despite the doubts—and graduated with honors. She let go of the lies that kept her small and chose a life built on freedom, growth, and evolution.
That’s what Loving the F is all about. The fears, the failures, and the freedoms we’ve been told we can’t have.
Because you don’t need permission to go after what you want.
You just need to rewrite the narrative.
Regarding reinvention, Melissa said:
"I wanted to reinvent myself and thought I had to change everything. What I discovered is first, it’s not a reinvention—it’s a remembering. And second, the only thing I had to change was my narrative. Once I did that—everything fell into place."